Battling something today.
I figured out what it was.
I just need some sun.
Tried to negotiate with myself over going tanning.
So afraid of skin cancer.
It's this time of the year I wish I had used 15 or 30 when I was at the pool all summer.
I have to give my body a break...
I've been working in a studio the last two weeks that is an old masonic lodge.
There are no windows.
I mean NONE. NO WHERE. NO WHERE IN THE ENTIRE BUILDING.
I was in there for 6 days for 9 hour days.
It has caught up with me.
I am going to buy one of those lamps tomorrow come hell or high water.
I am sinking and the sun is the only way to not drown.
I hate this feeling.
It makes me feel weak and wish I was a stronger person without these genes.
Oh well...there are worse things.